I had to tell her thanks She just wanted one conversation I don't blame her stopping, shit is complicated Honest neighbors don't open their mouths unless they got to say their contemplations Homies know I'm not to fake, I had to tell her "I'm okay but not okay", thoughts of you but not today And that makes me feel like shit, but that's okay Nightmares of decisions keep the road paved, timely nough I've been up with writtens bout the cold days, sighing much Trying not to give in to the old ways, Sitting on my dome, while i'm looking for who gon' relate Niggas think they know me, been assuming everything So they think i don't change, but it's usually every day I'm on another whole plane, No wonder i always got a growing taste Anyone conservative, find it hard when the game change We may see or be god, prepare for anything I swear to god, niggas so scared of any change That they can't see, dough ain't the goal, it's a gateway You looking at yourself enough, you see we make pain Living with depression makes me realize my fate's made I can't change how i feel, why rather fake That's just a shitty way to bottle things and stagnate So i don't try to make life appeal to my mind If i gotta say bye and die, then that's life Shit may go right, if so you can call me But i just hope you learn new tricks get it, friend

Aye I got a phone call, another body Follow protocol, grab the shotty I got a phone call, another body Follow protocol, get a shotty I got a phone call I got a phone call, I coulda guessed it Buffalo soldier, I'm smoking good I'm smoking doja, aye I guess we wait until it's over I guess the people aren't equal if we sober So roll it up, set my heart back Follow where my heart leads Back to the art like Basquiat Paint the picture, show my mother I am not my pops Show my brother I am not the opp Everything falls into place when you know your place You eating food? Nigga, say your grace Float above and beyond what they have to say Boast a lot but be the pond and not the lake Heroes die, I ain't ever seen one make it All my idols really dead, makes me frustrated I ain't even praying, I be laying in my bed while the walls cave in I got a phone call, another body Follow protocol, grab the shotty I got a phone call, another body Follow protocol, get a shotty I got a phone call We were just smoking We smoking herb We smoke electric Bodies on the curb and the white man elected Give a pig a bird, that's the word, fuck a sentence That's the word, fuck Donald Trump again, nigga, I coulda guessed it More gifts than there's curses this year, i think Keeping track been more impertinent to kid Good thing i learned i make my purpose in this bitch Life could be fake, I'm under surface when i can be Gotta love my fate, i could perish in my damn sleep If my niggas can't stay, they're cherished on my main street Brodie, all my art solidifies my fam's dreams 'Cause that's all i can keep, plus the memories Don't be like "soly ain't ready for a man's beef" Mainly skin and bone, but at your dome, if your hands seen I've been practicing stoic, walking toe-tipped half the Focus so i always think of days i can't be antsy I know the phrase, i really dance like they can't see Pain's never my motive, a nigga needs to plan for peace I've been hopeless, as much as i've been the anti Can't freeze to scope it, i might fall if i'm just standing yes i'm always on the go that's just protocol writing hooks off the cuff so the song's resolved another body outside the local mall while the people inside are on the slowest walk, it's kinda sad Don't expect...

This week wasn't the worst, I've been defeated in worse ways Mind on my purpose, but my feet in the dirt Tryna walk the sunny surface, til they bleed and they hurt i guess To deal with the stress, i had to weaken it first Girls think that I'm the best until they peak at my curse World will truly give me credit when i'm sleep in a hearse Since a youngin thought of death as simply leaving the earth and vice versa But the pain makes it seem so much more Some stuck cheating the game, looking weak and absurd But in my brain, showing feelings help you seek the reward I'm only saying we don't need the decor Thought this'd be gradual, adulthood's looking deep at the shore But it don't matter, growing up just means more teeth on the floor Disregard cavities the past of me has sweets i deserve I hope mom sees that i try to not have peace tossed aside but i can read all their lies I know i'm always telling truth, it's just an easier life See, some ain't used to it, assuming i'mma treat em like society I been wrestling with depression and it's beating my sobriety At least i know i never need a high inside of me to meet up with the light Not like i can try to see it when i die, and that's a fact carried beside of me Sometimes i give a bleak vibe, i tell you please don't hide from me Kept a select few beside, guess i'm not leaving quietly Sometimes i give a bleak vibe, i tell you please don't hide from me Kept a select few beside, guess i'm not leaving quietly What if this just how it goes now? These niggas overproud, can't cohere my holy powers I try to hold it down, improvised like Ryan Stiles My past is really trash, so i had to throw it out I'm the only lad who pumps my gas since i got older Haters shit on everything i have, i'll just hold my mouth In love with art, no cap, I'm a pop culture child Golden flower blossoming at the top of a snowy mountain

From dust to dust, the more i see love as trust The more i wanna go back home I still dunno why some hope to see me after dawn I rarely turn out to show up At least that's showing love, but who really knows the struggle? They see the craft in the hallway, It's attractive but don't all stay They back up, like all state So i clearly saw who's afraid The sweeter ones drink the lemonade And we won't argue for fame, see our value all day I keep the circle close but not closed Rarely in the mood for literal but attitude is not clothed Sometimes I think I'm Stockholmed, and hate how i love the globe And wish i really had the bucks to show the one i know Weed all gone, should i cop another sack? Studio home, made this track before a nap I'm usually unknown, we only chatted for a snap Then i left you to the globe, I had to double back Get used to the sound, bitch 'Cause what if the inevitable happened right now? Y'all was never at the house, whenever the lights were out It's incredible, I see how much i let em slide, wow Feels funny like I hit my elbow's inner side, loud I'm real money like that bullshit parents fight about Across the board, I see my indifference makes a big difference Started in the world from small decisions to large wishes And opps could judge me on a lost image, so fuck all opinions I'm done tryna impress niggas since they're all beginners To my way of living, hop the train or stop tripping I like to watch the rain, don't use the pain for drip I cannot complain about things, I got myself in most this shit I could cop another sack Studio home, made this track before a nap I'm usually unknown, we prolly chatted for a snap Then i left you to the stardust, I had to double back

We about bein out, seein’ clouds If you vibe, be around, we around, so be around We about bein’ out, meetin’ pals If you vibe, be around, we around so be around Thank you, thank you, think you’re far too kind, it’s hard to reach sometimes I’m often off and on my mind, to broaden my horizon’s quite the time I’ve been in quite the times the fight with my inside’s been getting easier My senior year was fine but only at the end I barely grabbed the pen round then, was more for other instruments 404s and friendships, love can work with innocence But we working with different shit, they nervous and ignant to their Own curses, it’s pitiful. I’m splurging on chicken nuggets I’m buried in sin and woe, tryna feel myself, I’m gettin’ old, Killin help, the type to manslaughter, caught her in the scope Thought that she was dope, taught me how to walk I was raised by New Paltz. Cherry hill’s my soul. Weeded out, you just needed to sleep on the couch I'm damn near a tree, I'm chief of chiefing the loud I reek of reefer clouds Keeping it key to demons won't help Been peaking since twelve, I'm seeking top shelf You're awkward as hell, I'm awkward as well I'm honored that you stopped in to hear my tale And it ain't stale, your brain's just trained wrong I'm about making plain songs, staying on my job But we can lay a little longer right? it's been a somber night Let's get the proper vibe, i wanna see you in that thong, that's right But i'll just hop on and push with my left foot We on point, then we less good, yeah That's what i be on, but i'm still blessed dude We about being out, meeting pals If you vibe, be around, we around, so be around We about being out, seeing clouds If you vibe, be around, we around, so be around

It's only midnight, I'm not tired yet It's hard to sit tight, pondering life and death Helped my niggas fly but i'm no pilot Still stuck in the sky, staring at the vast sea of my history Mama said take out that trash But i'm too busy digging through it, tryna find more treasures Living lucid, minding my old lessons Is it love if i miss every one of my exes? or is it stupid Sentimental and i hate to let it make my head spin Living legend, greater when i spread my effect Looked at the crazy paths behind me, see em all connected Listened to the herd and heard a faulty message Yeah, listened to the herd and heard a faulty message Looked at the hazy pasts behind me, see em all connected You saw the writing on the wall, but gave no call or text to a friend Don't be surprised when my smile's gone in seconds seeing you i just be like you don't ever owe me a thing I miss naomie and brandon, no it ain't dumbing the brain I use feelings to numb the pain Hope you don't call me insane, that would mean you don't understand it Missing my homies on brand i guess, i put that on my band tape Jams from back then on my mind every damn day Never wanted to rely on you, so i'mma stay inside Keep an eye on my iPhone in case you save my life 'Cause i'm sentimental and i let it make my head spin, Living legend, greater when i spread my effect Looked at the crazy pasts behind me, see em all connected Listened to the herd and heard a faulty message Listened to the herd and heard a faulty message You and i had to travel far, but no one walks forever I was ready at the start to stop and marvel the weather You got much better than your youth, was never hard to be with you though

Nightmares where i die, and they're getting pretty nice It's getting less frightening Don't tell me to deal with my shit unless we have the money I love advice, but most my life this shit requires money I used to drive, the whole time, i had to deal with money It almost killed me, so now they need more Racing thoughts are taking off, tryna break my heart Making paper's hard, my lady's gone, And I'm very often afraid to wrong, angry and sad lately Art's the only aid i feel i have, tryna scab these scars Nightmares where i die, and they're getting pretty nice It's getting less frightening (Love being alone in my head but it's lonely here. No one can hear!) I don't need a beat, I need a point Often write my bars before i even make a noise Past me is far, I've been envious of that joy Since i learned the world isn't the friendliest we could ploy Sometimes i be done and just pennypinching with words I don't want a girl it takes my freedom and it hurts By freedom I am not meaning being with others Just that i couldn't be homeless, or ugly around her With my sad face, sharing nightmares where i die Or how I'm scared to lose her to other guys The whole world really wants me at my best i guess No wonder there's no one to go to when i'm depressed Nightmares where i die, and they're getting pretty nice It's getting less frightening (Love being alone in my head but it's lonely here. No one can hear!)

I be navy blue, in my palm is my payment due Sorry about my armor, I can be a somber dude regardless of her samba Wish i had a marmaduke or garfield, but 2020 gave me an omen Take me as i'm growing, grace be in the moment I be waiting on the skull and bones to take me from my home It's like the job's already done, I got no place to go Old mates are nowhere near where i thought they were I ain't okay, when you're sad everything differs Old times ultra-swollen on my mind like blisters Those are rhymes in my vault, still gold at least that's there Always been one with passion, Tired of letting niggas pass while no one wants to match it Wish that life was like a crash test, but this ain't ever practice Figured i was weird, can't relate to how the masses think I wish you were here to help me with this joke we have to take I wish you were here so i could sorry my past mistakes I wish you were here I wish i was there, who else has your hair Would take the leap of faith, but i'm afraid i'm scared Doesn't seem too fair that i still ache and care to anyone It's been many months, and you're still in the air Wonder if you had the time to realize how i feel 'Cause it's real I be in my bed, grasping my chest mid-day Rummaging my head, feeling like my heart's about to break Partly from the stress from the sacred checks i have to chase And all these niggas' expects got me hexed as of late I wish I was there

I see the years accumulate on the paper pal, Sorry I ain't chase a job, you know I'm not tryna be a cashier Just tryna get the cash here, so i can work on greater sounds Hungry as the africans that god leaves to save themselves And die after a day or twelve, for trying to survive Life is heaven and hell, some profit off of life Medicine helps, to no surprise Nothing better than the lack of lies though, from staying inside I learned another lesson If i'm ever next in the game, they'll be testing, stressing Betting when i'll be lame, and making shit a contest, Watching all of my steps, just to fuel the gossip And prop themselves up, but i am my own shelter Still tryna rock with fellas, turn my fam to rockefellers Wonder if i never prodded, ran with acapella Maybe I'd connect with ya at an earlier level I guess I'll never know, I just never tried to step on toes They recognize intention only when they find themselves at fault Every time presenting my endeavors, it's too cryptical Niggas don't get it though I'm fixing close to vision Hopefully it'll be worth it but I see shit's never perfect, So uncertain what i'm working for Just might close the curtains so i don't have to explain no more I lived to die trying. Changed after realizing they can't see my sky. They're crossing thoughts on me Never confirming with me? I'm walking off homie They're tryna talk on me Never confirming with me? I'm walking off homie I let my pen hit my scroll up, for hymns i need to grow Can't depend on the globe, I just might go evanescence mode Me and her used to irish goodbye, now i go alone Whatchu know bout that? I been solo since the minish cap, a minute before that So oddly enough, a nigga's not to be touched Without some heatproof gloves, no see-through love

I've been dying inside but can't admit it to doctors Living so hollow, yet regret is not a hard pill to swallow It taught me to better Too bad the farther i go, the more i upset em Marcielago on the way to the lake Far as i know, that whole day could be fake I wonder what you really wanna say to my face Maybe you're afraid I'mma call out your shit Called [anon] last night, all that she did Was judge on what i have, not the bars that i spit Wondering if i'm tracking to college and shit When there's still some special days we ain't acknowledge yet Hung with [anon] last night, all that she did Was ugly up our past, like the beautiful didn't exist Tried to tell her why I'm unusual, how cool she was She just thinks I'm tryin' to woo her and shit Listen nothing matters, tried to make it And it gathered into something between the greatest and baddest Why's it in nature to relish definitions of what could've been better? You know I dwelled on the worser moments than happiest, But fuck you if you never heard the Happiest, Then you walk around like "I wonder what's his current sitch" No wonder I'm strangers with most niggas from school, They didn't play by the golden rule, it was more about me than to me Like i was in a zoo caged, couldn't say a thing to him, too phased But they never knew my ways, we never discussed Putting together the trust was causing my head to bust Who's fake? I know you'd rather talk about me than to my face So since you've been hating, when i die at least I'll never cry again, plus you'll get your prize All i wanted was to be friends with the world I used to be, now we're not, but maybe then Uh, Uh, Kick a flip off the street, might hit a cab Fuck a cliff, that ain't me, at least i'll travel Gunpoint's much agony, but it's old fashioned Yup. who can relate? Mom might pass, if homeless, life might catch me I'll fight who, if they win it's no cap You don't spike my tea, I simply trust that Show me how to never cry again Show me how to never cry again, damn Show me how to never cry again, please Show me how to never cry again, life

"are you talking about suicide, 'don't kill yourself?'"

"Like jesus fucking christ, do you know when you jump out the window and you're, like, fantasizing, like "maybe when i jump out, the pavement turns into, like, a lake or something and i dive into nothingness." how do you know you don't just suddenly come to?" I had to walk a little more before flying I am just a child of a hill, call me Zion Niggas really lorecrafters, crazy good at lying I'm tired of thinking bout who's close and who's dying Forgotten friends, I used to always have em with me I remember enemies, they can't catch my energy No one resembles me, I think I see some niggas try though I'm out here alchemizing my woe to gold, so niggas can get close I used to keep emotions holstered Now you on the ropes if you ever come through passing that bullshit Used to let you slide, i was too nice, a nigga needs repulsing Seems like the only way we're gonna build Guess my mom is not the only one to criticize when i'm just walking around Yes, my mind's been lonely, fun to happy's just quite different, I'm the harbinger of a new era Flex my time in holy wonders, cappers on the front line, but all shook up Lessons from the poems end up gradually lining up with rhymes so we might not have a lot in common My thoughts been cooking hotter than a pot of ramen Maze in my heart, I'm not tryna see world as rotten Dazed and split apart, I've been searching for some solace, My phases of art glide, i'm learning how to polish Recently been feeling darker than my hairy face Pondering departure, yeah that seems a scary fate, right? Bet you can relate, everybody in the human race The only eyes looking at the sky to face time Following nobody, when i'm tryna reach a lotta people Following nobody, but I'm tryna reach a lotta people

Feeling what you're saying I'm not the type to peel off when the pay in I pause the sights to breathe all of my pain sometimes What am i to you if not the same? I fought a life to view her in these days Glad i had some room inside her brain I ask it matters if i soon enough will fade Guess I'd rather take a boot than feel fake All my life I've just seen mortals tryna play Morals run amok, brighter days And some where i barely see the sun Life ain't black and white it's metal gun grey Mad aware my time is up to fate Number every time i take an L Like i got a chick to write on every blunt i lay I don't even roll, but i rap nigga, I don't put the mic away If you day one, damn right your homies hyped you stayed Damn right your homies hyped you stayed Aye, wait There's no one i can date without having to pretend I'm great My self can't emulate She was a minute maid, wasn't here long enough We were tryna make lemonade out of the lemons gave She saw my demonstration, there's demons in the station She keeps away. Some shit was how I was raised Most of it mistakes, but really no need to be afraid We all hate pain, I play no games, but i spar with my brain All of it's dangerous, but only to me The only person i hate, only person i need to I'm down to grow up I'm down to stop feeling this way I'm down to get over the old phases, and the old faces But everything's the same Yeah I see the changes, but I wish I could change At least I know my angle Easy to look over a rainbow But I'm finding gold tryna hang close Tryna hang close