Been the same since a kid and I'll always change No shit there's nostalgia in my brain Thanks for the name and the nickname (So much I can't forget. So much I can't) When I consider it all, I guess I'm always extra Most everybody wants applause, but only thought about it (Tired of people's shit) Must be the ego (Why can't they admit?) And it's not like my own mom I hate She's tryna see me and relate But for some reason I can only feel myself round mates, no obligations I can see that one day she was eight 'Cause she mistakes, like, all the time I choose to stay in my room and in my mind Sorry Momma, this is real life Can't tell you what it feels like Can't tell you what it feels like We living in different times Sorry Momma, this is real life Can't tell you what it feels like Can't tell you what it feels like We living in different times Sorry Momma, this is real life Can't tell you what it feels like Can't tell you what it feels like We living in different times Sorry Momma, this is real life Can't tell you what it feels like Can't tell you what it feels like We living in different times

Most times, the high is more nice when you bought the weed yourself We on the fence between nirvana and hell I'm all about the good tales, but often I just dwell on fails I'm really just trying, at least my momma can tell Way back in high school, I was a provocative male Focused on them eighth notes, I stayed topping my skill Focused more on bae's hold than grades when I hadn't fell in love yet But I was just a babe, still haven't learned what success was All my exes just think I'm sexist 'cause all we had was sex That was how I expressed love, a nigga stayed broke Prolly their worst ex 'cause I'm unable To stop tryna convince them my feels ain't fake gold Used to hate to blame my past, but my youth was straight broken I contemplate the hopelessness of tryna save the road we built But regardless what we tell others, only we know the truth The truth is we had fun If we're being real The truth is we had fun, the truth is I had love for you If we're being real The truth is we had fun The truth is we had fun, the truth is I had love for you For real

Ballin' like I'm innocent Ballin like I'm winning All I like is instruments and all my life been iffy Giving game and wisdom to my niggas like I'm 50 Tryna make a gang and form a unit like I'm 50 I'mma break these chains while letting you know that I'm worth it Catch me building up confidence like my Uno cards are perfect Tryna pay my momma's rent, you moving through my yard like serpents Plotting on my fall and telling folks my truth as if you know it You know you don't know it You know that I'm focused on proving I know my onus So just watch me show the populace Most these folks are solace-less Ain't got no hobbies and just focused on their wallet Tryna keep a fuck buddy I need nothing but money, but my mind is polished I do it by putting thought into my idols and their songs I might go out like King Steez or go out like King Kong Either way I know I'll be singing all along You say we should make music But when I'm tryna do it, you ain't booking I'm looking for a unit I can cook with Lotsa people think that I'm a rookie By the time they see the projects, they be shook often Who am I to tell a lie? You're either on my side or not To tell the truth, I've made chicks cry a lot And bitches made me sigh a lot Cyanide on my mind a lot but I just cry then stop 'Cause that's the loop of life. LOL If you're listening you're either feeling hell or well 'Cause one day, your cat might die Next day, you may win a grand prize, right? Used to be anti-ice like "fuck Articuno" Still none of it's required on me to prove the dude's cold Yeah man, I'm quite nice, shut like a suitcase though And if you play-doh, then I won't play 'Cause I don't fake And I don't say Things I don't mean To my homies I don't fake So I won't say Things I don't mean To my homies I don't fake And I don't say Things I don't mean To my homies She had a beautiful soul, loving me 'Cause of me, it's just a fucking hole now So she's with a new dude, oh no But at least she's happy and she only sees her goals now But deep low down, I'm as broke down As Trump with no power, or an old house But I'm old now, at least older than those around me And those old and grounded, find me so astounding So I don't even mean to dwell on her, Just saw her earlier, and it's been a while I just wanna smile with no things to rant about And gallivant around, like my niece does Simply, blissfully And she's allowed to do that 'cause she's young I'm the opposite, so I get numb sometimes But I run these rhymes in my mind like they really matter And I don't fake (And I don't say) And I won't say (Things I don't mean) Things I don't mean (To my homies) To my homies I don't fake So I won't say Things I don't mean To my homies I don't say Things I don't mean To my homies I don't fake! No fake So I won't say things I don't mean

I met you so long ago, man Like, 99% of listeners won't really know what I mean with this one Hopefully some will try to understand, but at the end of the day: This is not all I can say (GIVE BACK) Since the loss of a mate, I've been lost in a maze Climbing tall rungs today, had my faults since a baby Cut you off over a lady, such an awful mistake But all I'mma say is sorry I should've spent more time alone between all them parties But we was getting high at my home, like, every day I didn't have more space in my cranium to step that far From two whom all I wanna do is GIVE BACK to now It's too late to give back to the crowd Most of them sucked anyway Except you and Phoebs who hit me up, like, every evening I still dunno the reason... Maybe y'all was just tryna give me a chance to prove That all the rumors were just due to silly pedantics Really there's a reason word of me got so exaggerated Half them ain't the facts, but I sure had SETBACKS Notice how I often took the sec to express I couldn't trust a breath Of whatever the rest were letting on I saw the sudden death coming, knew if it wasn't for y'all The crew would've left somewhere round when Micki did Tried to stick to y'all like a hickey does But y'all were fed up with my tripping and my troubles If my mental got me ******** *** ****** and ***** ****** Should be understood why y'all would STEP BACK If you think the son ain't good enough to get that and truly be ashamed Guess I must explain, I simply thought I could truth it away Now all I do today is ruminate, it's too innate Mom be like "do these papers" I'm busy tryna screw my brain back together I guess that's why this album exists Fans gon' understand I'm no leader like Malcolm X is New friends will never be there to see the good haps But we were, and still we can't GO BACK So nobody knows the times except time Y'all can go around and try to change their minds on me But the real life will never come to see the light I mean, my eyes make one side, with your eyes, that's two With her eyes, that's three times what life actually viewed So we'll spit our perspective and dream about our truth I'll admit the sad, feel free to give flak 'Cause all I wanna do is GIVE BACK to you now... Tragic This is not all I can say But I like to keep my tracks short This is not all I can say This is not all I can say

Been thinking about this shit for a while First thing's first, if i'm famous, rich, single at the same time I'mma hit you with a ring and ask if you would hang at mine Then we can talk, and I'mma bring up all the rare nights That we would talk after you broke me off So you know the hope ain't lost At least I hope the truth is that obvious Even though at first text, you'd prolly laugh off the trust 'Cause nobody loves their exes, i'm just smacked off a crush When it comes to love, I should just relax, ours was rushed, right? You should know mine was based off of more than one night First I had to brush Dave off and force the stars aligned I realize my brain was off, yours just wanted time But then we had our first kiss After that, I felt blind for years then [redacted] Least I think it was yours, I knew it was mine Figured we certainly wouldn't unfuse And then I was confused a little when you found you weren't invincible First thing's first, when i'm single, famous, rich in 3010 I'll say "I'm sorry again, and we should start being friends" And then we'll actually be, hopefully Though I'm imagining we could form an actual peace Where I can have me a piece of you and you have one of me That doesn't have to be Apologies that I tried to make you match what I bring Which was love I think 5 years of being friends then it took for more alone for me to be a decent man 5 years to be whatevs Then it took more alone for me to breathe a decent breath 5 years of being friends then it took for more alone for me to be a decent man 5 years to be whatevs Then it took more alone for me to breathe a decent breath

Fuck who you're standing with if they can't handle this truth Stuck on this planet where not all our plans can mix Few bucks for a can of piss or maybe cannabis Just tryna manage life and understand it Looking at my past like "I really could've handled that" Took a different path from the average and ran with it Lots of the tales in my life mostly stale Who am I supposed to tell to start canning it? I'm prime candidate I'm in love with the part of me that feels good Shit's tough when it's hard to get my gears turning Been stuck in a guarded state of healing Wishing for some luck with my heart, forreal Tend to sit still when the vibe don't appeal to me A slight chill in my spine in the aftermath Gotta heal after every interaction had Often ideals seem to fail to have a path Fell in love with stress subconsciously And honestly, I think it's only growing as my youth melts away Tell my sons I've never been a model for nobody Just a homie tryna help the globe improve with his brain Just another nigga but I'm huger than this plane Above the folks who give themselves excuses for their ways To couple me with you would be a shame To put it bluntly, me and you are not the same You been fronting, but the truth is on the way I'm stupid lucky, could always use another day I'm super hungry, not many noodles on my plate I've been moving clumsy, but I ain't losing either way I keep running even though the track is so long and my feet hurt Looking for the one to run with, can't wait to meet her Life is some bitch, ain't done with it yet, apparently Spare a seat for me on the train tryna reach earth I'm in love with the part of me that feels good Shit's tough when it's hard to get my gears turning Been stuck in a guarded state of healing Wishing for some luck with my heart, forreal Tend to sit still when the vibe don't appeal to me A slight chill in my spine in the aftermath Gotta heal after every interaction had Often ideals seem to fail to have a path

I've lost love When I said I loved you, wasn't just to hear it from you My days are clearly numbered, I need a ride or die Tons of love letters left inside my site online Been the guy to write my life, the flyest hyped that I survived I tell them I'm still here for them, just not tryna shy from light Sometimes it's hard at night when I wanna text you my mind But we've already tried, so many times I think we taught eachother what a sore topic is like I've lost love I've lost love before I've lost love I've lost love The solace that I seek often only feels like me And the solace that you've seen ain't been here for many years Honestly believed I was Bambi to your Faline After all that time we spent with those deer, good times Crazy times, maybe I shouldn't ever had changed my mind, like, 80 times But i guess it was something that fate decided We were like Romeo and Jules but didn't take our lives Just two Scorpios at transformative ages I used to be like "Hey" And then you'd be like "Sol" And then the next few hours we would talk about our day Spent time all on that game Bananagrams, I lost Loved to see your face, I'd take your call til super late Even after heartbreak, we kept in touch afar But then you went to College and no longer could I say (Hi!!!! Hey, Hai!!!) They say it's better to have lost than none at all i guess a cliché is all it takes to ease the pain Not easy dating but at least I gained some years of training LOL made me realize life is heaven and hell ... Always on a pursuit Finding chicks to flirt with, and putting in the work I got a lot of hope knowing peeps like you on earth I know we both just want someone to keep, not leave us burned I remember your face when we were going through it It really made me realize the power of what I say Sometimes I wish I could take the knowledge I have now And bring it back to those days. But fuck it, there's more Took a page out of your book, so now I'm really searching Out here in the wild just like any other person, nothing's certain And even though I lost yours I'm proud to say that you're a reason I felt love before I've lost love before

I stick to very few mates It's usual the mutuals just stayed acquaintances Used to have a crew come over, most just came to blaze a spliff The real ones would wanna one on one with me In top conversations, John was never under #3 Honest, the topics talked about would tend to get deep Like a rocky horror copy, know that we were both freaks to society We're older now, still we know The farther we go from this planet is the colder our style Yup Get used to the sound I stick to very few mates, it's even rarer they stick to me 'Cause I'm seldom hitting niggas up, nobody makes beats At least those inspired only ones I want anyway I just wanna help with their encumbersome day-to-day Y'all can go to hell with the dumb drums you copy paste I don't need to sound like those other bums to compensate Lotsa niggas just make fun of the way you live 'Cause they feel well when someone else is getting all the shit I know I know It's stronger than I I stick to very few mates, people fare with two faces Keep aware of whose faith in you could fade in two seconds I don't hate on who's stepping on my name I just keep my grace, straight is how I aim I fired the afraid, they had me burnt like an eighth I was tryna keep my sane They think that I think I deserve no pain As if I'm the happiest on the earth, what a shame 'Cause that's not how empathy works But I'm no teacher, just a speaker I'm a writer, not a fighter Fuck what you think you knew about me Look at my life right now, you see I'm just tryna be They try to stop, but I stay on go Even when I'm at a low, no rain in my fro I'm on my own thing, fuck what those saying I don't need what they need when it comes to growing I'mma be what I be, you stay in your own lane Goddamn

Find the words to say More to say You're worth More to say You're worth more than you think You're worth more than you think Find the words to say You're worth more than you think You're worth more than you think You're worth more, more... The words

The way is the queso, everybody say so I ain't tolerating fakes, say it to my face Don't wait til there's pain, It got me wasting my seconds on the hate Questioned sane and heaven Ain't ever wait to tell ya stay close Way old days breach my brain, least I make do Takes a sec to pit stop Seen the awkward bliss of dodging issues since a little toddler Wishin I could figure all my problems with a liquor bottle If I see a homie getting hurt I'mma have to stop having fun and get to work The bullshit on this earth got me wondering what life is worth Winter's like an iceberg, and summer kinda burns I like how things look but not really how they feel And maybe I should just stop avoiding the wheel I wonder who's good for naught, some shallow as kiddie ponds Main harrowing problem's I can never tell who's real (Real!) Thirteen was when I realized that whole deal First time that I started looking at my feels Thinking maybe it'd better if I wasn't here to discover another fear Others made that clear Then I said "Fuck it!" I'mma be a volunteer to help make this world more sincere I know my peers need assistance In defeated conditions I'm not the only kid I'm not the only kid This world is mostly sick Centuries before covid Detrimented growing Stepping on our toes, we just messing And I know my peers need assistance In defeated conditions I'm not the only kid (I'd rather keep it real witcha) Yeah (Oooooooh) I'm not the only kid Ooooooh I'd rather keep it real with you Ahhhhh I'd rather keep it real witcha

My first girl really had a body like a queen All she ever wanted was somebody she could keep She had some faith in me but I was just a dream Nobody knows how I really love them If she knew how strong my feelings were, we'd be a couple If she know how real they were, we could go back to something A couple flowers on the sidewalk had me troubled Used to pay the stress no mind, used to never humble down She was crying in the hallways while I play class clown Looking for some cuddles as if I figured it out Had the best intention but I couldn't get it out Now I roam this earth with tons of stitches on my chest Thinking of ex after ex has to lessen but I can't help digging through baggage to grab some lessons Broke with her so I could be a bachelor Now I wanna keep the next one Tryna avoid the past directions I stepped in. The joke is on us 'Cause look at me now, knowing I can't redial Been through many deep trials, nothing like fifteen My first girl really had a heart like a queen All she ever wanted was a heart she could keep, a guard she could keep She had a lot of faith in me but I was just a dream Look at me now, I'm wondering how You'll look at me now... ...

There's a lot of people I look up to Gotta keep a buck like a bank do Honesty keeps me lucky Main goal is to inspire, secondary is the money Need it now though, if I'm broke I'll never see the crown Deep down I can see that everybody wants some peace But everybody wants a piece, lemme share something with you I'm not the perfect person but I'm not the worst version I used to be, Sometimes I'm off-beat but growth is cool to me Glad I managed friends to keep, time will tell who wants to leave Sometimes I can make a mess But I can help who wants to be aided, I'mma try my best I'm surprised that I'm not jaded yet Been through some amazing tests, wonder what this age holds next Got a feeling that my fable's blessed Keeps me through the days of stress Spit these bars with angel breath Eventually they make some sense I wanna see the homies all good I just wanna see the homies all good I wanna see the homies all good I just wanna see the homies all good I wanna see the homies all good I just wanna see the homies all good Said I'm not perfect with it, I just wanna earn forgiveness I don't think the world gets me, some shit just gets to me Keep those feelings in my building Outside, I'm tryna heal them niggas doing worse than me I've been learning these emotions don't control me Not when I have intuition Spending hours on my songs, tryna mint the vision These lyrics really let me throw away my inhibitions And get to teaching homies they can harness all expressions I know I'm not the type that's not a legend I'm hyped to top my records of times I brought the pleasure And I can floss that intention, I'm right to want that direction Been kinda lost before but my own rhymes taught me some lessons I was just a little kid when i lost my innocence Never lost my hope though, need my partners to get with it Keep your guard up from their sinning Bleed your heart to rid toxins and Go as hard as life is living I wanna see the homies all good I just wanna see the homies all good I wanna see the homies all good I just wanna see the homies all good I wanna see the homies all good I just wanna see the homies all good

It's a little too much a mood Just a scared man who's looking for love and food I'll be here when you wanna begin anew But you don't owe me shit, and that's something I learned since Know you're just telling your truth But I never ever meant to hurt you Wasn't really clever with my work I was dead-set on making certain moves We wouldn't be upset if I could make the earth move Nothing came to plan like how I wanted it to I just know the plan was how you wanted it too Learned my clumsy hands and now fiddle with much fewer things I be scared and it's a little too much a mood Just a scared man who's looking for love and food I'll be here when you wanna begin anew But you don't owe me shit and that's something I learned since Know you're just telling your truth But I never ever meant to hurt you Wasn't really clever with my work I was dead-set on making certain moves We wouldn't be upset if I could make the earth move Nothing came to plan like how I wanted it to I just know the plan was how you wanted it too Learned my clumsy hands and now fiddle with much fewer things I be scared and it's a little too much a mood Just a scared man who's looking for love and food I'll be here when you wanna begin anew But you don't owe me shit, and that's something I learned since Know you're just telling your truth But I never ever meant to hurt you Wasn't really clever with my work I was dead-set on making certain moves We wouldn't be upset if I could make the earth move Nothing came to plan like how I wanted it to I just know the plan was how you wanted it too Learned my clumsy hands and now fiddle with much fewer things

About a week before his last day, he was like "Aye, how you been? It's been a minute, I've been thinking we should link" That's my nigga, friends since children, we were never on a brink But in highschool I was shy, I rarely hit up peeps I wanted Swear to god I wouldn't front, just couldn't be the me I wanted Niggas asked for a collab, I was busy Going hunting for an eighth, or a honey Nowadays I learned my lesson, keep in touch with the connections 'Cause tomorrow they might be dead Ran into that nigga at a show He was telling me bout how it's going I had what he wanted on that day He was telling me he's on the way All my homie wanted was a goddamn car All my homie wanted was goddamn apartment All we ever was a place to share the bars And I'm back where I started anyway, life's a bitch I'm losing niggas Niggas who got the whole picture, so they just blur it with xannies I've been a victim, never did pop on no pills, didn't realize i was lucky People out here really think it comes handy Even my mom replaced yellow with candy Music will be where I'm mellow and dandy When life is dark and as hell as it can be Not tryna turn to a shell of a man When a problem arise, I'm not telling my brain to shut off I just may dwell on the thing Cry out my feels to help with the pain But even with that, might as well moderate So I get help from the mates Stay grateful, by the bell, I am saved Play nice with the blessing I gained Ran into that nigga at a show He was telling me bout how it's going I had what he wanted on that day He was telling me he's on the way

PART ONE I really would be so glad if you just came home But I should focus on what I have, instead of what I don't Should've focused on what I had, instead of what I didn't But the truth is that I trusted you enough, So I had to tell you, had to tell the truth, Couldn't fathom you would stoop so low, to leave me solo Thought that I could say enough, you left me in the cold Mind blown, 'cause I never thought that you would just go After Vice City GTA at your mom's place And the Pokemon bong made for the bomb eighths And the Netflix-binging hours after couch sessions And my first acid trip, laughing with you, classic days This my last ballad for you, gladly have your wave I would never lack a mate like you just 'cause I didn't have my way A yes or a no, would've saved us more than half this pain An answer's really all it had to take, could've cured my brain Besides Peter, you were the best friend I ever had Together, we could do whatever (Vice City GTA at your mom's place) (Hike wherever we could step after couch sessions) I'm still here, barely know your half of the legend, sad Together, we could've talked it better (Irish goodbyes, good times just for you and me) (So many memories) No one walks forever Hope you remember the few times we cuddled The teamwork through struggle Not much we could do as two teens with inner troubles But we truly had eachother, you know we had... After highschool, our friendship stayed gold Not many other classmates I can say that for The lack of closure makes me feel pretty betrayed But I have enough empathy to know you make mistakes Besides Peter, you were the best friend I ever had Together, we could do whatever (Vice City GTA at your mom's place) (Hike wherever we could step after couch sessions) I'm still here, barely know your half of the legend, sad Together, we could've talked it better (Irish goodbyes, good times just for you and me) (So many memories) PART TWO "Yo, she was my homie for a minute, you know what i'm saying? Like, We grew up together, my nigga. I ain't never seen her with a dude or nothing. I thought she was a lesbian at one point, dawg." "A lesbian?" "My nigga, not every bitch who rejects you is a lesbian. Did you even see her with a girl? Ever?" "Nah nigga, that's not my point. Nah, I'm saying, like... She was single the entire time I knew her... bruh." "Okay" "Uh-huh" "I figured, 'Yo, I haven't spent my time with anyone in this entire fucking city as much as I have with her. Why am I out here getting my heart broken over these girls who shoot first and ask later?' 'There's a dime right in front of my face and I never get enough of her.' You know what i'm saying? When we hung out, we hung out indefinitely, my nigga. Indefinitely." ... "That's another thing too, she taught me things. Like new words and shit." "Ight, ight, so you digged her. You were in love with your best friend. Okay, and...?" "Bruh. I've never even heard her talk about a crush. Nothing like that." "Well, bitches don't really-" "I thought about it for a while, and then I said 'fuck it.' My heart was on her for a minute. Then last spring I took my shot. She hasn't talked to me since, my nigga." "Oh!" "Damn bro. And y'all were best friends? Forreal?" "I mean she was my best friend, shit." "Wait wait, what you mean you took your shot?" "I told her I loved her!" "Awwwwwwww." "Nigga." "Damn." "...Last spring..." *laughter* "You can't be springing love on bitches like that, bruh." "Yeah, nah, ain't no one tryna hear the word 'love'. Unless y'all bouta kiss under the moonlight, or y'all just fucked under the moonlight." "Or you could've just snuck the conversation by her. You know, ask her out to dinner first or something, damn!" "You needed to wait for the moment." "Bruh, I've known her since I was FOURTEEN. I figured I knew her enough. She's a ghost now, my nigga. She might as well be dead. Shit." "Sorry but... It sounds like you brought that shit 'pon yourself, my nigga." "Get this, though. I saw her ass on Match." "Match?" "Now she's looking for a boyfriend." "Ohhh! Match.com? That got me some premium legs, that fuckin' site." "She's really out there prolly matching up like a motherfucker. Technology basically bouta take her from me. The fuckin' nightmare of the 90s is alive, dawg." "But wait, y'all haven't talked in, like, seven months." "We used to talk all the time." "Plus, like, if you found her on match, doesn't that mean you were looking for somebody too?" "Yeah, but..." "I get it, dawg. You were running from the pain to some refuge." "Uh-huh. Yeah, that's a much better plan. Stick to scaring strangers away with your heart falling out your sleeve." *laughter* "Ay man, shut the fuck up. Y'all don't know what you're talking bout. Y'all niggas call ladies bitches."

People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last Right now we just bums, but we know we gon' blast Muddy in the slums while we hope for more cash Anyone is lame talking low on us We won't let the fame and the dough make us clash Some people gon' shame try to hold us to our past But we guess they're just late to know the future's all we have Created our own lane, so we allowed to be brash No tolerance for fakes, hearts of gold, nothing brass If y'all gon leave or stay, we ballin' either way We saw how people think It's always been the same The thought that peeps they hate always up to something bad We'll put water on the flames, staying true to our act Wish no harm be sent their way regardless of the pain But the truth is they betrayed, we could never share a path with them Only love the mates who were close by the trash No tolerance for fakes, hearts of gold, nothing brass We're growing up together Feeling lucky enough, we're glowin' up forever Fuck who up to something bout blowing up our credit What's a bug to us? We're giants in our prime We're dying to survive Crazy how fate be even at 10 years old Cherry Hill was the best, it's like we never left home We both got family issues, but we family and so We got a person in this world that gives a glimmer of hope ... People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last People come, people go, but we gon' last